Emotional Hangover from Normal People
So I am sure you have all heard of BBCs Normal People with actors Daisy Edgar- Jones and Paul Mescal. I just want to say, how amazing they both played their parts. It was so real. So raw. It almost seemed like they are actually Marianne and Connell.
There has been so much love for this latest TV series, people are going insane over it, me being one of them. I binge watched it at the weekend and I am still in that emotional hangover about it. I’m reeling. But why, like so many, am I feeling like this?
I guess for me, so much of it hit home to me. It is very clear from the first episode that both Marianne and Connell are not strong people mentally. They both have their issues. Connell is socially awkward and struggles to say what he wants and his feelings (to the point I was screaming at him on the tv). Marianne understands how he feels, but has different issues. She feels like she was born to be unloved, and she has had to cope with her abusive family and bullies. They were so close to eachother and had such a special bond because they both felt they were different to others and they understood one another.
So why have I got this emotional hangover from a TV series?
Well, like Marianne I wasn’t popular at school, I was bullied and I always retaliated making me perhaps look obnoxious and snotty. Now, in my early 20s where I am estranged from a close family member of mine, I guess I feel unlovable by them. I feel how she feels about her mother. Like this family member can and never will really love me even if they want to. It has brought to me a lot of questions and emotions that just keep bubbling up like a stew. And at the same time as understanding Marianne, I also understand Connell’s feelings. I’m socially awkward and very lacking in confidence of myself. I always put myself down, I have those hideaway moments just as he does.
In light of this week being Mental Health Awareness week, I wanted to write this to let other people know, it is okay not to be okay. It is the tiniest thing that brings up these emotions in your real life. Some people, like me are emotionally sharp. They get overly invested in anything emotional from someone else’s life to a fictional character in a tv series.
So how do I get over this hangover?
It has been so comforting to know so many others are feeling like this after watching Normal People. But I don’t want to say I have taken a negative feeling from this programme (I mean I already want to watch it again). I have taken a good thing from it. Marianne accepted in the end the situation with her mother and brother and I have began to accept the situation with my estranged family member. I understand it now. I have good and bad days but that’s okay. That’s normal. I am one of those normal people- ha see what I did there!? 😉
There has been so much love for this latest TV series, people are going insane over it, me being one of them. I binge watched it at the weekend and I am still in that emotional hangover about it. I’m reeling. But why, like so many, am I feeling like this?
I guess for me, so much of it hit home to me. It is very clear from the first episode that both Marianne and Connell are not strong people mentally. They both have their issues. Connell is socially awkward and struggles to say what he wants and his feelings (to the point I was screaming at him on the tv). Marianne understands how he feels, but has different issues. She feels like she was born to be unloved, and she has had to cope with her abusive family and bullies. They were so close to eachother and had such a special bond because they both felt they were different to others and they understood one another.
So why have I got this emotional hangover from a TV series?
Well, like Marianne I wasn’t popular at school, I was bullied and I always retaliated making me perhaps look obnoxious and snotty. Now, in my early 20s where I am estranged from a close family member of mine, I guess I feel unlovable by them. I feel how she feels about her mother. Like this family member can and never will really love me even if they want to. It has brought to me a lot of questions and emotions that just keep bubbling up like a stew. And at the same time as understanding Marianne, I also understand Connell’s feelings. I’m socially awkward and very lacking in confidence of myself. I always put myself down, I have those hideaway moments just as he does.
In light of this week being Mental Health Awareness week, I wanted to write this to let other people know, it is okay not to be okay. It is the tiniest thing that brings up these emotions in your real life. Some people, like me are emotionally sharp. They get overly invested in anything emotional from someone else’s life to a fictional character in a tv series.
So how do I get over this hangover?
It has been so comforting to know so many others are feeling like this after watching Normal People. But I don’t want to say I have taken a negative feeling from this programme (I mean I already want to watch it again). I have taken a good thing from it. Marianne accepted in the end the situation with her mother and brother and I have began to accept the situation with my estranged family member. I understand it now. I have good and bad days but that’s okay. That’s normal. I am one of those normal people- ha see what I did there!? 😉
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