Mental Health
Hello everybody. I am writing this from down under, in Australia. But how did I get here!? Well yes obviously I got here by plane, not magic carpet! But how did I REALLY get here!?
Well it is thanks to my mental health really. I have never been strong mentally, but I have never told anyone about it. I guess I felt ashamed, embarrassed and I wanted it to go away. Those of you that know me, know that I have always dealt with issues of what I look like, my ‘image’ the real me. I was born with an under shot jaw, which means my bottom jaw stuck out 4mm more then my top jaw. My teeth didn’t meet, meaning I didn’t look ‘normal’ to some people. I was bullied at school for this, but laughed at them all when I had the surgery and was virtually a new me.
I say a new me, I mean it. I do look different to how I did. But more, I FEEL different. I love myself, I’m happy with how I look. Problem solved.
But it doesn’t end there. Two and a bit years ago (I think) I started running. I loved it. Or I do love it I should say. But the running made me realise, I wasn’t happy with me. I didn’t love myself. So I starved myself, I didn’t eat properly and I over exercised. I was never thin enough. I always wanted a thinner figure, a better figure, a normal figure. This is when I realised I do have mental instabilities. I wasn’t happy in my long term relationship, or my job, or my own body. So I took the plunge. I ended my relationship, and I booked flights to Australia and New Zealand, made plans to see wonderful friends and family out there, and I’m all good.
The last couple of weeks have been so fun for me. I have rekindled with my besties, I have been planning my trip. I met this amazing guy who I never imagined I’d meet. And I felt loved. I have a good relationship with both parents now and I am in a good place. And for the first time ever, since being in Oz, I have felt the confidence to take a ‘bikini pic’. And for the first time ever I have had nice comments about how I look, not just from the amazing guy haha!
So for those of you out there who do suffer from mental health issues with their body like me. Let me tell you, you are not alone. And you ARE normal to feel like this. Everyone has insecurities. You just need to be around the right people that make you appreciate who you are. I know my friends will always be there, as will my family. So don’t let those horrid people put you down, the ones who say, ‘I no longer find you attractive’ well that’s their loss isn’t it!? As long as you love yourself who cares!? Amazing guy, I dunno it was probably a summer fling but everyone needs one of those right!? What’s life without fun!?
So my message here is; Believe in you, then others will believe in you, love yourself, then others will love yourself, and the rest is history.
Gooday, Meg x
Well it is thanks to my mental health really. I have never been strong mentally, but I have never told anyone about it. I guess I felt ashamed, embarrassed and I wanted it to go away. Those of you that know me, know that I have always dealt with issues of what I look like, my ‘image’ the real me. I was born with an under shot jaw, which means my bottom jaw stuck out 4mm more then my top jaw. My teeth didn’t meet, meaning I didn’t look ‘normal’ to some people. I was bullied at school for this, but laughed at them all when I had the surgery and was virtually a new me.
I say a new me, I mean it. I do look different to how I did. But more, I FEEL different. I love myself, I’m happy with how I look. Problem solved.
But it doesn’t end there. Two and a bit years ago (I think) I started running. I loved it. Or I do love it I should say. But the running made me realise, I wasn’t happy with me. I didn’t love myself. So I starved myself, I didn’t eat properly and I over exercised. I was never thin enough. I always wanted a thinner figure, a better figure, a normal figure. This is when I realised I do have mental instabilities. I wasn’t happy in my long term relationship, or my job, or my own body. So I took the plunge. I ended my relationship, and I booked flights to Australia and New Zealand, made plans to see wonderful friends and family out there, and I’m all good.
The last couple of weeks have been so fun for me. I have rekindled with my besties, I have been planning my trip. I met this amazing guy who I never imagined I’d meet. And I felt loved. I have a good relationship with both parents now and I am in a good place. And for the first time ever, since being in Oz, I have felt the confidence to take a ‘bikini pic’. And for the first time ever I have had nice comments about how I look, not just from the amazing guy haha!
So for those of you out there who do suffer from mental health issues with their body like me. Let me tell you, you are not alone. And you ARE normal to feel like this. Everyone has insecurities. You just need to be around the right people that make you appreciate who you are. I know my friends will always be there, as will my family. So don’t let those horrid people put you down, the ones who say, ‘I no longer find you attractive’ well that’s their loss isn’t it!? As long as you love yourself who cares!? Amazing guy, I dunno it was probably a summer fling but everyone needs one of those right!? What’s life without fun!?
So my message here is; Believe in you, then others will believe in you, love yourself, then others will love yourself, and the rest is history.
Gooday, Meg x
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